I'm back. I'm back to writing, I'm back to performing, I'm back to speaking, I'm back to doing.
I apologize for leaving you. It was longer than I intended. Words are powerful. It matters what we say. When my words started attracting a following, and interest from businesses and academics, I wanted to make sure that those influenced by my words were being led down a path of light.
I am human, and flawed and I wanted to make sure that the systems that we are working to redesign and rebuild are built in a way that reflects the God that I know. The God that loves, that listens , that accepts everyone for who they are and motivates them to be better. I didn't want to contribute to the systems that worship a God that exploits, causes pain, or that creates separation and division among people. This doesn't mean that we are going to shy away from highlighting the effects of ill gained or abused power. Bad leaders and systems have given us racism at West Point, toxic corporate culture, policy that doesn't serve people, war crimes in Rwanda, water poisoning in Flint, disparities in our educational system, media that obscures the truth and sells conflict, and a justice system that profits off of those who are vulnerable. The effects of bad leadership and systems are many. I have written about these issues previously on this blog. These were just a few examples and I hope you get the point, so let's move on.
I didn't want to build a system that is not accessible, but I also understand the need for us to be able to compensate those who contribute to us fairly. Balance is a tight rope to walk. It's hard and I am just like you. I am deeply flawed. I am human. I was created that way and I have accepted that. I am learning to not be crippled by shame, fear, or worry. I want so badly for us to succeed and I do have a slight fear of failure... I don't want to let any of you down.
Running Poetic Change is a huge responsibility. It first started as the answer to my own healing; My medication to trauma and abandonment; my therapist when doctors dismissed my pain ; my way to communicate to a God that had seemed so distant and at times a myth. It has evolved to include so many awesome people from military officers, to academics , to great business leaders, urban planners, activists, politicians, lawyers, a domestic and global community . I have you to thank for that.
No matter what your title , job, or how much power you acquire, eventually we will hit a point where we realize we are not God. We are human, we don't know all the answers, we hurt, and have caused hurt, and want to do better. Humans want love and to love. Poetic Change speaks to that. We speak to collectively keeping ourselves in check , distributing power, and redesigning spaces and systems that need help with balance. Individually we will fail, but collectively we will succeed . The God in me sees and needs the God in you to help create profitable, successful, inclusive, and equitable systems that reflect the love that we all desire.
Those who have contributed to this journey, on faith, and who I still owe, I thank you. To my many managers and team members who allowed me the flexibility to explore different business models with the safety of having a full time job to fall back on, I thank you. I'm thankful to all of the lawyers who have provided legal council in these matters and in the matters of civil rights . Your expertise has been more valuable than most of what I have learned in a classroom. I'm also thankful to my academic counselors and coaches. They stopped me from comparing myself to others, and to instead focus on getting the most out of this journey every single day.
My life is full because of people, not because of accomplishments or credentials. And because my life is fulfilled in this way, I will take my time, and do my best to put people first. I am thankful to my husband for helping me to keep my heart open. Life is full of much trouble, I read that in the bible somewhere. ( Job 14).. and that trouble can easily harden one's heart. It happened to me. And I was set free through love.
It is this need to work on myself. This need to get to a spot where I could breathe and digest all that I have learned about how this world works, the realization of who really has power, the keys to gaining it and the process to shift the results of this human experience to reflect more of the God that I know , the God of love and ethics and understanding, that this has taken so long. But I'm back. We're Back and We're ready to let you in again. .. Stay tuned for updates. Love you all. I haven't forgotten about you. Everything in time. Here's to Poetic Change! I'm excited to show you all that I have been working on. :-)
Commited to innovative leadership and institutional change
My name is Kylila (Ka-lee-la) which means beloved. I am one who loves, or at least tries to. I have had many titles, Poet, Photographer, Videographer, Writer, Cadet, Private, Athlete, Leader, Director, etc. I have learned that the greatest successes are born from the most tremendous trials. Everyone has beauty in their life story.