Oklahoma with Love

Oklahoma, I love you. 

I'm thankful for your friendship, your care, and your willingness to help me increase my cultural IQ. 

From Geronimo, covering, caring, and educating me through my pregnancy and the most tornadoes that I've ever experienced, I'm grateful.

To Lawton, for helping me raise my voice, and to see that voice matter, it's powerful, and I'm thankful. 

I'm not happy with the way that I left, It was in the bonding of fear and self doubt. 
I left in chaos, with my mind, body, and spirit being attacked.

My heart used to be my vision, my aspirations for impact, but now my heart is my daughter.

She comes first. When people, or systems attack or don't support the needs of my heart, I cannot operate. This was true when I left in 2019, and This is true presently.  I left to find  the needed support for my daughter and myself. 

I have to take care of me, before I can produce, or take care of anyone else. 

This is why my art has been stagnant. I cannot produce in chaos. I cannot produce in fear. I cannot produce in an environment where my heart is dishonored. 

I'm thankful to Oklahoma for helping me rid the chaos out of my life, and for helping me see that who I am will always exist, and will always shine brighter than anyone or anything that means me harm. 

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What is in me , my abilities, my intellect, my resolve, is greater than what is against me. 
I appreciate you all teaching me that success doesn't have a location.

Environment also matters.  

Who you allow in your inner circle matters.

Some people can not take the journey with you.
My journey is one of vulnerability and advocacy.
My light comes from truth.
Truth is always with me.
​It is my duty to speak it, to the best of my abilities, even if I sound crazy. 

I'm working on making truth not hurt. It shouldn't. Our tongues have the ability to speak life and death.  It can be difficult to come from a critical culture , a culture of high standards and self hate, where advertisements and media profit off of demeaning words and low self esteem, but still choose to speak with kindness.

Kindness. Kindness is what Oklahoma has and is teaching me, for that I am thankful. 

Thank you, Oklahoma.  

Thank you for being Oklahoma

with Love,

​Kylila 
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